Saturday, December 25, 2010

Unhappy New Year

My Inbox is getting filled with Merry Christmas and Happy New Year e-cards these days. Most of the people I know have moved to e-mailing; it's environment friendly, cheaper, and faster. I like all aspects of it, no doubt. I probably will get a few mailed cards with my name and the address of my office in the first couple of weeks in the new year. It is mostly when governmental institutions want to play "cooperative" with NGOs. I also get some of the UNICEF cards from few others, such as bigger NGOs, and diplomatic core's offices. But, it usually remains on the level of e-cards with Merry Christmas and Happy New Year notes. Some are short videos or flash animations. Nice.
There is something warm in all that, regardless of the fact that most of them are circular and impersonal. For a very brief moment, it makes me feel taken care of. It took the person who sends the card some time to type my name and the address of my office down to the mailing list, and didn't take it out in days of e-mail lists revision.
I'm not like that. For ten years now, I ask my friends and colleagues at Civil if they like my newest New Year Card, which they usually do. They got used to be a part of an organization that is different. I cherish them for being what they are, and thank them for supporting my initiatives, including these pre-holidays ones.
My cards... Those are usually cards that do not wish the best in a standard text next to a Christmas tree and Santa Claus, etc. For about ten years now, I remind people in my extensive mailing list of the fact that it's been another year in which human rights and freedoms have been severely violated, that people suffered from injustice, violence and poverty. On a number of occasions, I also wished strength and courage to people who struggle for peace, equality and human rights.
So I did this year, again.
Some of the recipients sometimes respond like: "Yeah, couldn't this wait until after the holidays?" Many are supportive and say we're original, as always. Some say: "Aren't you tired of all this? You keep barking, things never change".
They are all probably right. More or less. In the end, who am I to take the freedom of ruining people's right to be careless and cheerful, close their eyes before the sad and violent part of the world? Who gave my colleagues the right to support a card which is not in the line of the commonly accepted cheer? It almost looks like absence of good taste, like an attempt to ruin the mass "season greetings" and all sorts of joyful tick-of-a-clock celebrations.
Well, regardless of how individualist I may be, I still see that the majority of the world's humans, starting with the town where I've spent most of my life - have no reason to be happy these days, as well as any other day of the year. Dead drunk, maybe, but not happy. Majority of them will suffer in the moments of planet's official date of celebration. Poor, humiliated, beaten, tortured, sold and re-sold, killed, or praying for death to come - how many of them? While big screens and bells will mark the tick that will change that one number in the memos, like a taxi-meter, billions of people will keep on struggling with their dreadful lives. Will the bells and loudspeakers overloud the weeping children and women, the roar of the system that turn human dignity into dust?
Should we, the minority of human kind, living in the "civilized world", sink into kitsch and get overfed, for the sake of the habit? Self-content, deaf and blind to the cry of the billions?
And, where is the good taste there?
Um, maybe the best is to give some change to the nearest beggar and clear our conscience. Or, be kind to a message of peace and human rights and pretend you listen? Or, really listen to such a message, and say something like: "Someone has to do something about this, some higher authority..." And, vote for the right-wing bloodsuckers after that. And - be happy when some fat criminal invests in a factory right under your nose, because you hope for a job in that poisonous facility... And - after you or your kids get seriously ill, blame on everything but your stupidity and short-sightedness... And...
Well, let me interrupt this, since I made my point, I'm sure, and follow the tradition for a sec. Yes, I will make a wish on my side, finally.
I wish you to read my note, and take it seriously. I wish you to open your eyes, and clean up your ears. I wish you to start thinking. I wish you strength and courage.
True, the coming year is not going to be happy, just as the one that we leave behind us. It's a consequence of conformism, arrogance and ignorance, bear that in mind.

Thursday, December 9, 2010


Dear fellow citizens,

On the International Human Rights Day, we take one more opportunity to raise our voice to call for respect and defense of human rights in our country and elsewhere in the world.

Human rights and freedoms in the Republic of Macedonia are violated in many aspects. Workers, students, children, persons with special needs, ethnic minorities, and many other categories in the society are humiliated, manipulated, and discriminated every day and in many ways. The Constitution and laws that guarantee human rights and freedoms are not implemented, or just partially implemented. Violators hold important positions in the institutions, using their positions to get away with their deeds in a scandalous way before the eyes of the whole public, disregarding decency and ethics. This behavior affects all segments of the society.

It is time to end ignorance about human rights and freedoms. It is time to speak up loud and clear about deprivation of human rights and freedoms in the Republic of Macedonia. Human rights cannot wait for better times. Better times will never come if human rights are not fully respected by everyone in favor of everyone.

Dear Friends, human rights and freedoms belong to every human being at birth. They are indivisible and universal. Human rights and freedoms make us human.

Learn about your human rights and freedoms, and tell others. That is the first step only. You need to fight for your rights, and help others fight for their rights! Violation of human rights leads to violence and destruction. The fight for your rights leads to peace, democracy and prosperity for you and your children.

Fight for your rights!

Sincerely yours,

Xhabir M. Deralla

Thursday, November 11, 2010


I look at this people and wonder how stupid humans can get. I see these people going to cheap-stinking restaurants, eating and drinking cheap and lot. They get drunk and sing silly turbo-folk songs, amongst which are songs of struggle for justice and freedom from the Ottoman Empire or so. Yes, they sing of justice and freedom from an imaginary oppressor in the evening and kneel and act disgracefully before the rulers they elected themselves in the morning. They are taught to hate their fellow citizens because they speak different language and believe in slightly different gods, but they will be slaves to those of their tribe, and will sleazily obey anything they say, and will try to do even more to entertain the party leader.

To kneel is not enough! Kiss the dirt before the feet of the party leader! Lick his shoes! Eat the dirt!

I look at these impoverished and deluded people, many of them confused and scared. I hear them chanting to the leader, while he walks between the ridiculous and kitschy monuments of his vanity and fabricated history. Their minds are empty; brains washed; their stomachs are empty, only hearts are filled with stage-managed emotions. Sandwiches and Rakia is made available during the bus tour of party supporters, to fill the city squares and leave an impression that the leader is great.

These poor people support their leaders who rob them in the most unscrupulous way. These poor people believe that - by supporting these thieves today - secure a better future for their sons and daughters tomorrow. Unaware they seem to be that their sons and daughters will have to pay the terrible financial and moral debts for a long time into the future. Their daughters are going to walk the streets for money. Their sons will look to the west, seeking for a decent life, ashamed of the sordid legacy that their parents left behind.

txt&photo: Xhabir M. Deralla

Friday, November 5, 2010


The time has come!
The time for revolution of mind has come
Time to fight yourself
Changes will happen day after you win the battle with yourself

Fight your prejudices
Fight your selfishness
Enjoy the struggle, whatever it takes
Enjoy your agonizing wounds
for they are less painful than slavery

Wednesday, October 13, 2010

Print on Black - No Good Will Come of This


Open Graphic Studio

Museum of City of Skopje

13 October 2010, 20h

Note from the Artist: Miroslav Stojanovic - Shuki

The exhibition Print on Black - No Good Will Come of This” consists of 20+ monotypes created in the venue of the Open Graphic Studio. They are (and are not) being finalized in the last few months.

Although I am familiar with the graphic processing, this engagement is not an attempt to enter the area of graphic expression, but only enlarging the arsenal of drawing tools of expression. The drawing was and will be (at least to me) the main and basic communication tool of the artist’s comprehension of the world. Charles Bukowski wrote: “when you leave your typewriter you leave your machine gun and the rats come pouring through”.

Drawing is that machine gun to me.

This exhibition is entirely dedicated to and inspired by the unpublished book of poetry “Apocalypse” by my dear friend Xhabir Deralla; some of my works include quotes from that book.

Darkness in this catatonic and abnormally cool poetry is something we have in common and I hope I have succeeded to transfer parts of that atmosphere.

(October 11, 2010)

Tuesday, October 5, 2010

Macedonia. Timeless.

no jobs, no money, no textbooks, no medications, no vaccines…
there are monuments, there will be more, flags are waving, we become more ancient by the day…
no parking, no streets, no infrastructure, no industry, no healthcare, no investments, no hope…
there are horses, lions, churches, minarets, and crosses…
we depart into the dark history every day of the present
we are so primordial that hardly anyone will remember us in the future…
except for mockery…

Wednesday, September 29, 2010


Urgent steps to be taken in the Republic of Macedonia to overcome various crisis that torment its leadership:

1. Eliminate the Constitutional Court

2. Rename the Lustration Commission into Illustration Commission

3. Close down the Parliament or – better – transform it into a pro-governmental NGO

4. Send at least 200 more special police force units to the village of Patishka Reka where about 50 villagers protest against a local infrastructural project

5. Update, enlarge and upgrade black lists of traitors and finally shoot them all, starting with the journalists and NGO leaders

6. Construction workers that claim that did not receive salaries must be hanged at the top of the construction sites

7. Declare war against Greece and finally hold the next party congress in Thessaloniki

8. Declare war to the European Union and send the lions from the Goce Delchev Bridge as the first wave of attack

9. Make people starve to get a healthier figure

10. Increase impunity of party functionaries and bodyguards

11. Work transparently: legalize secret political police

12. Build more monuments and wave more flags